Better Open the Door

I start over once a month. Sometimes five times. My confessor wears black but it's the white in his collar that I'm drawn to. I come to regain my innocence, but mostly because I'd like to maintain it. The majority of Catholics just don't get confession so I don't expect anyone outside of the church to. So many of us would love to make amends with God and with our past transgressions, to move forward.

I hate that Eastern religions are seen as so damn transcendental. So much more spiritual. I'll tell you that I would have never remained Catholic if it weren't for its meditations and philosophers. I'll be the first one to say that their is something special to Buddhism and Hinduism and all of their offshoots. I won't knock them, I've barely tried them. I'm just saying Catholicism is equally if not more divine. And yeah it drives me up the wall that the secular world seems more apt to accept eastern religions as applicable to the undeniable metaphysical side of the human being. Honestly, It must be that Christianity is so foundational to "western secularism and humanism" that its spirtual teachings and practices have been forgotten to, my archnemesis, complacency. It's just a thought. There is so much more to it I know and as I write this I can think of some tons of other reasons. i wish this had been more eloquent. But i miss a friend. And I'd like to talk with her. stream of conciousness has come to a close for tonight.